scream

I am screaming my lungs out.
Tears overflowing me.
The ache from my heart engulfing my whole body.
Suspended in your lies and truth.

The worst part, i'm still waiting for you to say it.
i have to figure it out.
Sorry, for i am stupid
i can't decipher lies

Can't comprehend lies
its also my fault.
should have run/looked away

Make you feel my love by adele

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But i would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry i'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No there's nothing that i wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy make your dreams come true
Nothing that i wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love

To make you feel my love

to cease

My musings won't stop
and so are my tears
the heartache has become overwhelming for me now

between knowing and not
i am suspended in your lies
and the ache won't stop till you tell me the truth

i wanna choose to move on
i wanna change my thinking and perspective right now
i want you obliterated in the recesses of my mind
please reveal to me the lies

nightmares has to stop
life has to begin

why

Why did i let it happen?
Why it has to be me to be used?
In despair, i now admit and break down
I can't stop my tears

i wanna drift away until my memory collapse
and my heart follow through
so in that moment
i can start anew

no guilt
no pain
no despair
and no one will know

my mask is still up
i can still hold on
until my Saviour has finish His work

why

thoughts creeping out

I can't take it anymore but I still want to be by your side until the time you have moved on or recover. Not because i want to be there in the end but rather to satisfy myself of the thought that at least you're happy and be able to experience life.

I'm hurting so much that it feels like slashing myself everyday. Take away my pride and sense of self. I also want this to all end.