it's been 3 weeks

Yep, it's been 3 weeks. Yet, I feel like it's been years since i last heard their voice and laughter, hugged them, ate with them or just simply hang out and talk. I wonder what are they doing right now. Suddenly my celphone and email inbox stopped receving messages from them, i thought something was wrong but then I still receive scam text message or network messages. So what happened? no idea!

I just wish they are alright and somehow...

on the side of me

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be on the side of me
on the side of meI'm not too proud of some things

I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
on the side of me
Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth
'Cause you choose to be on the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
on the side of me
Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody caredBut you...Yeah you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

waiting

After that day in the park, i have decided that i will grow my hair long, somehow i thought that you will take notice me if i have one of those beautiful, shiny, straight black hair. But that was just what I thought. After highschool, I got over it, but in reality did not, talk about pathetic.

Subconsciously, I still maintained the long hair however it was not beautiful like those you see in the commercials and surely not comparable to hers, thinking maybe if I run into him, he will notice. It was really pathetic of me to realize this now, that i still think of him and wonder how he is and what he is doing right now, and why do I still think of those things after so many years.

Well, i have finally cut my hair short,and i mean really short because that is the real me, i never really liked it when it was long. It was stupid trying to be at least a portion of that person he always look at. But then, somehow in my dreams, I wish I was that girl in the park, talking and laughing with him. I don't even know what I really feel for him but then will i feel the same for someone else?

miss ko na

Mga bagay na namimiss ko:

-maglakad mula sa bahay namin hanggang sa labasan

-umikot sa loob ng bahay namin

-mag-computer at papasok ang kapatid ko at sasabihin, "nandiyan ka pa rin!"

-hintayin dumating ang mga kapatid ko para sabay kami kakain

-pasigaw na tawagin si pau (with ate kris and melvin); at sasabihin niya na "ang ingay!!"

-pumunta ng sm

-kumain ng kwek-kwek at fishball sa may pamplona

-takoyaki sa sm

-mag-grocery

-pumunta at tumambay kina katrina

-hintayin ang ultimate kabagalan ni tam

-mga jokes ni tpat

-matakot kay rome at paris

-gumala kasama sina tam,kaycee, gian, manet at tpat

-ingay ng kapitbahay namin (from the side and back)

-mga kalat ko sa kwarto

-comicbook collection ko

-kama ko

-cabinet ko

-mag stargazing

-ang kaeng-engan ni tam

-ang braso ni katrina

-ang kapayatan ni gian

-ang noo ni tpat

-ang kaabnormalan ni manet

-mga college friends:candiecoi, brizzy, randy, tetay liit, tekla, bryan, karibee, isah, lani, gelli bean, bugs, ace, shirley, etc..

-mga makalat na kalye ng pinas

-ang simoy ng pollution

-puto bumbong

-bibingka

-quickly!super chocolate!

-kumain sa iba't ibang restaurant every sunday

-ang corned beef ni katre

-ang kare-kare ni ate kris

-ang pag-hibernate ni mabs habang hawak ang cellphone

-ang pag-kahol ni pogi

-kakulitan ni ming-ming

-kakulitan ni melvin