dead space

For the past few days my head has been working on things to write/blog about while my body is forcing to adjust to every circumstance that i am in and trying to go beyond the limits of exhaustion. I guess the dead me is back.

I actually like writing or rather ranting on paper, my mind just goes on and on that there is not enough neurons to process all information that my mind is creating. But in reality i never had the chance to write what i was thinking about since ideas happens in a spur of the moment where pen and paper are out of reach, some mystery or misery? ahhh writer's block.

I do admit that i am just a wannabe writer what the heck i am the audience of my own artics nad also the critique. Guess this what happens when you are torn between writing something and forgot about it and caught in the middle of life&death situtation and present-future situation. Incomprehensible?unintelligible? yeah, i have no idea what i am really trying to say because right now i am suspended between present and oblivion while still trying to have a glimpse of the future. Looks dark though but that's why flashlights are invented,or to be nostalgic, candles.

What can you do in dead space?

FINALLY!!!

hayz,sa wakas nakatikim na ko ng internet!wahahaha!!! Grabe ang tagal kong di nakapg-blog,well after all the crying, disappointments, hassles, tension, problems, stress,etc,di ko na malaman kung ano na, isang makapagdamdaming video muna!enjoy!

dolphin show at MOA

My friend and i went to the bazaar yesterday however the stalls were few so i asked her that we just watch the dolphin show at MOA. It was fun, if i could take the dolohin home with me. =)
I am not sure when my fondness of dolphins started, but i think it was when we went to cebu where we saw dolphins jumping from the water in front of the ship. I guess i felt that i also wanted to swim with them, hahaha! It was really fun and i kept on volunteering myself so i could go in front however there were so many at kids at that time, therefore they preferred the kids. hmph!
Well, here are some very ugly photos (unfortunately i don't have a camera with me that time so just bear with the photos..churi na..tiis na lang =) ]

There are teh sea lions that was also part of the show. Their names are jumbo and jell-o which is in their case is a father and son. (they are actually clapping!!)


And here are the dolphins, i forgot their names because i could not get it right.
Trivia: they can jump as high as 10 feet. and the female dolphin is bigger than the male.
(during the show while everyone is busy, they showed how they kiss)

till next scribble.. =)

buzz

>One thing you can't recycle is wasted time. Life is too short. Live your life well. Stop worrying over what-ifs. Be with the people you want to be with. Do the things you're eager to do, after all, its only you who will decide of how your life will turn out. Happy and contented or rigid and incomplete.

>First i was dying to finish highschool and start college. And then i was dying to finish college and start working. And then i was dying to marry and have children. And then i was dying for my children to grow old enough so i could return to work. And then i was dying to retire. And now i am dying and suddenly i realize i forgot to LIVE.

choco mousse.. =)

My PT41 family surprised me with a chocolate mousse cake earlier today.( cge na nga na-touch ako.hehehe.) Eventhough it was quite a bad day for all of us due to our thesis and exam,they managed to surprise me and greet me. To the MS team and to my thesismates, SOBRANG THAAAAAAAAANNNKKKKK YOOUUUUUUUUUUU!!
I could not express nor quantify how much thankful i am that you became my friends, classmates, thesismates,etc. Without you guys, i don't know how much hell PT life would be. And thank you for making my day extra special.

(Censored due MTRCB rating: R, hehehe!)
(scribbled on the cake: hapy bday!angiecoi walang ***** lab asf dancers) =)

And to all my friends who greeted me and shared the past years with me, i hope that i can still celebrate my bday with you guys. =)

ThAnKs

May we share more years of friendship. =)

pArTy

mga hanep sa banat

Nagbabalik na naman ang mga banat na hanep sa trip. in short hanep sa kacornihan:

>Pag ako ang gumawa ng planeta gusto ko ikaw ang axis ko..
para sayo lang iikot ang mundo ko...

>Tapos na ba exams mo?
para ako naman sagutin mo..

>Can you recommend a good bank where i can make a deposit?
Cause i'm planning to save all my love for you... (patay tau dyan,heheh!)

>Alarm clock ka ba?
Ginising mo kasi ang natutulog kong puso. (nyakZ!)

>Magaling ka siguro sa puzzle no?
kasi kasisimula pa lang ng araw ko...pero nabuo mo na agad.

>Mapa ka ba?
'Cause i'm lost without you..

>Pwede ba tayo magpapicture?
Para ma-develop tayo!

>kailangan ba kitang bilhan ng salbabida?
kase baka malulunod ka sa pagmamahal ko

>miss,miss, Gusto mo ng payong?
inuulan ka kasi ng kagandahan..

>bangin ka ba?
nahuhulog kasi ako sayo...

>pustiso ka ba?
kasi i can't smile without you!

>pagod na pagod ka na no?
maghapon at magdamag ka na kasi tumatakbo sa isipan ko.

>may butas ba ang puso mo?
kasi na-trap ako sa loob! can't find my way out!

>anong height mo?
ha?!? paano ka nagkasya sa loob ng puso ko?!

>Pinaglihi ka ba sa keyboard?
kasi type kita eh...=)

mga iba pang banat:
>Sana telepono na lang ako..........
..para may pag-asang sagutin mo ako..

>Galing ako ospital. Sabi ng doktor, may complication daw ako sa puso. Dalawa raw options ko. Either ICU or ........................................................................................................U C ME....

>Grabe nakakatawa ung mga pick-up lines nowadays no?Ahahaha..may alam ka pa ba na iba? wala na akong maisip eh..
kasi all i ever think of is you...

back to the quotes

On some days i feel like the days are just the same. You wake up, do what you have to do. Laugh a bit, go home and lie again in your bed. Everyday happens just like it did the day before and the only way to change it is if you look at every day in a different way. Smile. Switch roles. And don't repeat the old performance. Make it memorable and different each day.

HAPPY FEET!!!

It is all worth the wait. =) My friends and i had so much fun watching this movie, hope that you will enjoy it too. (if only we could take home the penguin mascot outside the moviehouse that day..tsk..tsk or at least the poster)

This is Lovelace, the so called expert that can answer any question.( the plastic rings around his neck should teach us the importance of cutting and disposing it properly since it may not only harm the penguins but other living creatures.) He was also funny and when accompanied by the "amigos",the scene becomes hilarious.

somehow, i wish that i could also experience the aurora lights in my lifetime, =)

Enjoy the movie.
By the way here are some of the songs used in the movie:

1. Song of the Heart
2. Hit Me Up
3. Tell Me Something Good
4. Everything I Own
5. I Wish
6. Boogie Wonderland
7. Somebody to Love
8. My Way (A Mi Manera)
9. Do It Again
10. Jump N' Move
11. Kiss
12. Golden Slumbers
13. Happy Feet Score Suite

Drama behind the things we ignore

Well, you see i had so much receiving and reading it that i felt like sharing. Here are some of it. enjoy. =) (seems to me a trend in sms to promote continuous texting)

"Nagpakahirap kang makuha ako. Yun pala bibilugin mo lang ako at iiwanan kung saan saan!"
-kulangot

"Sawa na ako sa kaka-on and off ntin. Pagod narin ako sa kakahabol sayo. Hindi ba pwedeng steady na lang tayo?
-Christmas light

"Hindi lahat ng green masustansya!"
-plema

"Ayoko na! Bakit kapag nagmamahal ako nagagalit sila?!"
-gasolina

"Tandaan mo na minsan kailangan tayo saktan at ibaon ng iba para malaman natin ang ating silbi, tsaka natin maiisip, mahalaga pala tayo."
-pako

"Bakit ba? Anong problema? Tapatin mo nga ako. Sawang-sawa na ko. Araw-araw na lang ganito, lagi mo na lang akong tinatapakan!
-Havaianas/islander

"Ginagawa ko naman lahat para sumaya ka. Mahirap ba talagang makuntento ka sa isa?! Bakit palipat-lipat ka?"
-TV

"Hindi ko kailanman intensyon ang lumayo,
lumipad...
at mawala...
Kaya wag mo sana akong bitawan." :(
-lobo

"sinasabi ko na nga ba eh! katawan lang ang habol mo sakin!!"
- hipon

"Kapag lang masama ang loob mo saka mo ako naalala at pinupuntahan. Dadalawin mo lang ako sandali tapos aalis ka rin"
-inodoro

"hindi masarap ang ketchup!"
-mang tomas

"You will never know what you have til you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back!"
-snatcher

"Anong kasalanan ko sa'yo? Bakit iniwan mo akong duguan?"
-napkin (yuck!)

"Bakit ka ba nandidiri sakin eh sayo ako galing!!!"
-tae

"hindi lahat ng maasim ay Vitamin C!"
-kilikili

"Hindi lahat ng babaeng my long black shiny hair ay kinagigiliwan!"
-sadako

"hindi lahat ng nagfafoundation at lipstick ay bading!!"
-Ronald McDonald

"hindi lahat ng daga ay peste!
-mickey and minnie mouse

"alam kong sa tingin mo masaya ako! Pero bakit kayo ganyan?! sa tuwing wala na kau masabi ako na lang ang ginagamit niyo! Pagod na pagod na ako sa pag-ngiti!
- =) (smiley)

"hindi lahat ng hinog at dilaw masarap!
-nana

"Wala naman akong ginagawa sa kanya. Hindi na nga ako gumagalaw dito. Ako na yung natapakan siya pa ang galit!
-tae (ulet!)

"hindi lahat ng kabayo, apat ang paa!
-diego

what made my day =)

Luli clarifies NAIA incident

By AUREA CALICA

The Philippine Star 11/03/2006

HONG KONG – Presidential daughter Evangeline Lourdes "Luli" Arroyo clarified Thursday that the violation in immigration procedures – not the shabby treatment of her – was the root of the confrontation she had with an immigration officer at the Ninoy Aquino International Airport (NAIA) on Tuesday, which prompted officials to relieve the officer while an investigation is being conducted.

"It’s not who I am, but the procedure should have been followed," she said in an interview with government television station NBN Channel 4. Apparently, Padlan did not recognize the presidential daughter, who fell in line instead of asking for VIP treatment at the airport every time she leaves for a trip.

She clarified that immigration examiner Edgardo Padlan was not relieved from his post because he scolded her at the immigration area and shouted at her to fall in line. The real offense was that Padlan allowed a foreigner to cut into the line and even allowed him to enter his immigration booth, which are clearly against immigration rules.

In a letter to The STAR, Arroyo said the immigration officer did get mad at her, supposedly for coming through immigration so close to her flight departure, but she protested and said that she did not deserve to be scolded because she stood patiently in line along with her sister-in-law and three-year-old niece while a foreigner was allowed to get ahead of other people in the line.

Arroyo said at first she only asked Padlan why he allowed the foreign tourist — a Korean — to cut the line and pointed out to the immigration officer that it was wrong for anybody to enter the booth. She noted that it might give the impression that some people can get special treatment in exchange for a bribe.

She said she also wondered why the Korean was permitted to get ahead of everyone else when he was in shorts and shirt, contrary to the claim of the immigration officer that the man was a supervisor or a VIP and was already delayed for his flight.

Arroyo said Padlan just dismissed her arguments even as she explained to him that he should not have allowed the foreigner to cut the line because other passengers were inconvenienced, including her sister-in-law, Kakai, who is pregnant.

But Padlan reportedly just asked her to go back to the line. He also started to raise his voice but another immigration agent prodded him to just process Arroyo’s passport.

It was only when he opened her passport that he realized he had argued with the daughter of President Arroyo.

Ferdinand Sampol, head supervisor at the Bureau of Immigration at NAIA, said that Arroyo raised the complaint to immigration supervisor-on-duty Asuncion Palma-Gil.

Padlan apologized but the next thing he knew, he was relieved from his post at NAIA and recalled to the Bureau of Immigration head office in Intramuros while an investigation is ongoing.

The officer’s family is asking that he be forgiven and allowed to go back to work.

"I am not angry but it’s not up to me. There is already an investigation," Arroyo said, when asked about her reaction to the family’s call.

Arroyo and her sister-in-law followed the rest of their family members here for a brief holiday.

Charges filed

Administrative charges were filed against Padlan while Immigration Commissioner Alipio Fernandez Jr. ordered further investigation into the incident.

Fernandez said they would determine whether Padlan should be sanctioned for supposedly violating separate directives on immigration officers at NAIA against displaying discourteous behavior and giving preferential treatment to passengers.

In a memorandum issued Thursday, Fernandez ordered Padlan to explain within 72 hours why he should not be penalized for the incident.

Fernandez stressed that he could be suspended for six months to one year if found guilty of the charges.

Padlan, however, has no history of complaints from passengers throughout his decades of service to the Bureau of Immigration at NAIA, according to Sampol.

The immigration chief reiterated his order to all immigration officers to be courteous to everyone, whether they are VIPs or ordinary travelers. He reminded them that there is an existing memorandum prohibiting immigration officers at NAIA to facilitate special processing of passengers unless there are government dignitaries, members of the diplomatic corps, senators and congressmen, Cabinet members, members of the judiciary and handicapped passengers.

Request for VIP treatment is usually coursed through the NAIA Public Affairs Office or the Airport Immigration Office.

**see full article

anatomiya ni grey's

Yep, most of us are hooked and still addicted to the series. Here are some lines from the series..

"The greatest disease in the world isn't medical. It's being unwanted, unloved, and uncared for. We can cure physical diseases but the only cure for despair is love. There are those who are dying for a piece of bread but many more are dying for a piece of love. Share it everyday."

"You know when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be -- white dress, prince charming who'd carry you away to a castle on a hill. You'd lie in your bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa clause, the tooth fairy, prince charming -- they were so close you could taste them. But eventually you grow up and one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope and faith that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true."

"Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate."

"In life we're taught that there are seven deadly sins. We all know the big ones... gluttony, pride, lust. But the thing you don't hear much about is anger. Maybe it's because we think anger is not that dangerous, that you can control it. My point is, maybe we don't give anger enough credit. Maybe it can be a lot more dangerous than we think. After all, when it comes to destructive behavior, it did make the top seven."

*3rd season update...
-do you want to know who meredith chose? Is it McDreamy or McVet? (duh..are you really watching?)
-plus the twists, like who slept with Dr. McSteamy aside from Addison?
-Did you know that George is gay in real life? (Yep, i read about it online in another blog and he said not to make a fuss about it.tsk tsk..i kinda like him though, harhar)
-Did Dr. Burke recovered?
-What happened to Izzy?
-Where will they find Meredith's lost black underwear?


***of course, i will try to put my own quotations but i guess it might take forever since our next academic break would be ages from now. I almost forgot i took the above artic from khandys which she got from her friend.=)

the humidity of june
brought about by the summer's last flare
another school year that will pass by
a feeling that may be a bitter sweet memory

the windows of the four corners
has become a small communication to a new dimension
immortal words that will forever echo into my soul
years will pass that small opening will lead me to a road that never ends

And will eternally treasure that moment

chain letters

Matagal ko na rin gustong gumawa ng artic tungkol sa mga chain letters. Sa totoo lang sa dami ng natanggap ko nang chain letters, marahil ako na ang pinakamalas na tao sa lahat ng aspeto ng buhay na may mga kasamang sumpa at kahit wala akong kaalam-alam ay naipahamak ko na rin ang pamilya at mga kaibigan ko, at higit sa lahat kahit ireincarnate ako 100 times eh hindi na nito mababawi ang dami ng sumpa na ipinasa sakin. Maging ang mga multo na dapat dadalaw ay nagkagulo dahil nagsabay -sabay sila at marahil ay nagtatalo na sila at nag-settle na lang sa iba (sana nga wala talga...).

Minsan kung pwede lang sisihin ang mga nagpasa sakin ay matagal ko naring ginawa at marahil milyong beses ko ring ibinalik ang mga chain letter nila kaso bawal daw yun; iniisip ko baka nakarma na rin ako dahil minsan nagpapadala din ako nun, nung nauso sa email ang mga chain letters at ako ay isa pang musmos na nagpapauto sa kalokohan ng internet. Pero to ang malupet talaga, naalala ko noong grade 2 o 3 pa ako eh uso na rin yan, tipong old school na ang gamit ay papel, talagang letter, san ka pa? lupet talaga. Ito ang klase ng chain letter na dapat isulat mo pa para maipakalat ang handog nitong kaswertehan o kamalasan. Madalas magpupunit ka pa ng papel at kokopyahin ang laman nung letter at ipapamahagi sa sambayanan na parang namimigay ka lang ng fliers at wag ka at may time limit din ito kaya dapat mabilis ka kumilos dahil kung hinde lagot ka sa teacher mo na kanina pa nabwibwisit sa ginagawa mo. Ang teacher mo ang magpapatotoo ng mga nakasulat sa chain letter. Kaya naman napagtanto ko na talagang wala nakong ligtas sa mga chain letters na yan. Mantakin mo minalas ka na sa pag-ibig, mamalasin ka pa sa buhay, babagsak ka pa, pinahamak ang pamilya mo, tatakutin ka pa at ang pinakamalupet eh dinamay pa ang electric fan niyo at marami pang kung ano-anu. Hayz, sino ba pasimuno nito?

Siguro ang pasimuno ng mga chain letters na ito ay yung tao na kelan man eh di nakatanggap ngh liham kahit kanino kaya ayun dinamay ang sanlibutan sa katopakan niya. Ang lakas din talga ng trip.

(note: ito ay isa ring chain letter, basahin ng 10 times para di madamay ang electric fan niyo at mag-wish. =D)

wHeN the itsy bitsy spider eVolved

You heard the song, but do you really know what actually happened after? Its descendants mutated and became this!!! (see photo below) They have capabilities to jump from wide distances and can withstand the rain and gush of wind. okay, i am just kidding. I found it inside our bathroom and have no idea how it got there but it scared the living daylights out of me every night for a week. Until one night it became suddenly hyperactive, it ran around the bathroom and jumped, so i screamed and my bright, in shining armor hero with the broom came to my rescue (hhehe, it was actually the maid). It also scared our maid, thus, she kept on slapping the spider with the broom. The poor spidey...

Here are the pictures that show our ORAD project. We took second place for this mini rehab.

On the upper left is the swimming pool area for the aquatic therapy. The lower left photo is a room for the pediatric. The other photos shows the other areas of the miniature rehab. Aren't our work nice? =)

timely message

Most of our life is a series of images. they pass us by like towns on the highway. but sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it will live on forever.

*a letter from God:
Anak, abat busy ka ata, either thesis, quarter test, prelims, midterm or finals mo, di ba? o di kaya busy ka sa trabaho. Napapansin ko madami kang ginagawa. Hindi ka na nakakadalaw sa tahanan ko. nakakalimutan mo na ding kausapin ako. Minsan andyan ka lang para humingi ng tulong. Masaya naman ako anak dahil madami kang pangarappero bakit parang hindi na ata ako kasama sa pangarap mo? Masaya din ako sa achievements mo pero bakit parang hindi ako kasali sa ina-alayan mo. Nangingiti ako pag nakikita kitang nakangiti kasama ang mga kaibigan mo, nabasa moba ang harry potter o da vinci code? sana anak, basahin mo din minsan ang Bibliya. Anak, tandaan mong kahit ano pa man, mahal kita at aalagaan kita. Ang iyong Ama nandito sa tabi mo.

*There's more to life than living it in the WAYS of this WORLD. You just have to open your eyes and take the chance to do whatever you feel is best for the circumstance, not what the circumstance dictates you to do. it's just a matter of changing your perspective from COMMONPLACE to EXTRAordinarY. That's why God gave us life; that we may be able to change the tides of this world, not to go with its FLOW. =)

*Loving is a lot-like watching a 20-minute fireworks display.
exciting.
emotional.
romantic.
sweet.
memorable.

But it also always ends as dramatic as it begins-fades slowly into thin air, and as much as you wanted to keep on watching, there's nothing to make it stay.
In the end, all there is left is a starless night and the fact that in this life, good things never seem to last.

*Beautiful lives don't just happen. They are made very single day with much love, prayer and sacrifice. The many tasks we face each day can burden and oppress us, but spending time with God each day can bring relief from stress. Let us be reminded that, "in the end", only 3 things matter: how fully we lived; how deeply we loved; and how gracefully we let go of things not meant for us.

*No one is immune to pain or insulated from suffering, and no one gets to skate through life problem-free. Life is a series of problems. Everytime you solve one, another is waiting to take its place. Not all of them are big, but all are significant in God's growth process for you.

*Life is all about waking up each day to discover something new. About meeting old people but making new conversations. Walking through old roads but still feeling nice about it.Realizing that you have grown a day older but still feeling young at heart. Meeting busy schedules but still finding time for old friends, being nostalgic about gone days but looking forward to better days.

highest level of toxicity

i am now disoriented, confused and basically lethargic which is just fueled by caffeine and portions of adrenaline. my nerves are hyperactive right now but my mind just want to simply rest. since the start of the semester, i could not recall when did we have at least a small break from all this chaos.

inbox

* john 15:16- "you didn't choose me, but i chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain" ...if God calls, we must answer, though we may not immediately understand His reason. He knows everything, He can do anything, and He loves you so trust in His judgemnet. Trust in His decision to call you. Let's not abandon his call.

*bible: this is why i speak to them in parables, because seeing they do not see, and hearing they do not hear, nor do they understand(Mt 13:13)
Lord, may i learn to see you in the ordinary experiences of my daily life. May i reflect and realize your presence in all that i am and all that i do.

*in the last days angels of light will appear and sun god lucifer will deceive many, but when Jesus the BRIGHT AND MORNING STAR arise, all dying stars shall fall and be totally eclipsed.

*His works are greater than human effort, those who wait and hope in Him shall renew their strength. they will soar on wings like the eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint. They shall inherit all things and they will overcome the world.

*i remember (the days of your youth) how as a bride you loved me and followed me. But like a woman unfaithful to her husband you have been unfaithful to me. i was married to a whore! but my love, not yours is scorned, of all the nations, i have picked you. I have tenderly offered my care and protection but you keep on sleeping with other men. I warned you over and over again, but you ignored me, your wickedness will punish you. Your backsliding will rebuke you, not even my chosen messengers will escape suffering. My patience is exhausted.

"Yet since you are crushed, i am crushed; i mourn and horror grips me. I refuse to share my bride, you have lived like prostitutes with many lovers-would you now return to me? Return to me o, faithless people, i will cure you of backsliding! if u REPENT i will restore you that you may serve me; i will restore you to health and heal your wounds. For i know the plans i have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, call to me and i will answer you. when you SEEK me withall your HEART i will be foune by you. so there is HOPE for your future! "says the LORD

that explains it

For this week i have been drowsy and sleepy all the time, although i am always like that however this time it was worst resulting to less productivity and fatigue, it caused me to miss an episode of a primetime show. and here are the culprits to my present condition:

side effects of this medication cause:
Cetirizine may cause side effects. Tell your doctor if any of these symptoms are severe or do not go away:
• drowsiness
• excessive tiredness
• dry mouth
• headache
• sore throat
• stomach pain
• diarrhea
• vomiting

Although side effects from loratadine are not common, they can occur. You may have discolored urine; this effect is harmless. Tell your doctor if any of these symptoms are severe or do not go away:
• headache
• dry mouth, nose, and throat
• drowsiness

SIDE EFFECTS: The most common side effects of itraconazole are minor and include nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, rash, edema, fatigue, dizziness. Less common but more serious side effects are liver enzyme elevation, hepatitis, and high blood pressure (hypertension).

If you experience any of the following symptoms, call your doctor immediately:

rapid heartbeat
difficulty urinating
vision problems
dizziness
muscle weakness



As you can see i have been taking cetirizne and loratadine which are anti-histamines and both has side-effects and that is drowsiness and fatigue.My doctor did not inform me about this side effects, i have to look for it on the internet. argh..hope i'll be able to study something for our exam and grand pracs. wish me luck.. *_*

elevator moment

ok, i have decided to share an experience that happens to a chosen few, in example,moi. I'm pretty sure that day wasn't friday the 13th, it was actually friday the 9th of june. Like i have mentioned this kind of moment in a person's life is (hopefully!) once in a lifetime. I think you can guess what a very bright thing happned to me (the title is so obvious) yep, i got stuck in the elevator.tsk tsk, what are the odds that it has to be me, alone at that very moment when the power was suddenly gone? Arghh, anyway, i still consider myself lucky, i did not panic although i got worried because it was really warm inside (now that i thought of it, must be one of the factor that aggravated my skin asthma),oh well, again, it's hard to be one of those chosen few.

TODAY-june152006

We were dismissed early today so i decided to see a dermatologist, my skin asthma got worst. I waited for more than an hour to be entertained for less than 15minutes and my bill just skyrocketed to the space. tsk tsk, pathetic me,i almost lost my van fare to pay up for that bill which i will begin looking for some bits of gold on those itmes they sold me that couls ALLEVIATE my condition. She also prescribed me with oral meds which i also bought in her clinic (coz it wasn't available outside or is more xpensive) of course, who could argue with that? but at least her approach is nice and hopefully waht she adviced would really work, just to get my money's worth.

however, i still can't get rid of thoughts that some doctors use their profession to make profit out of people who needs their help. shame on them. maybe they're just living the hypocrite's oath. have a nice day.

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9 hardest times of your life:

1. being questioned when you yourself don't understand
2. pretending to be innocent of what you know about
3. trying to forget something you know you never will
4. admitting you are wrong after you have been so insistent that you were right
5.debating with yourself
6. accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be
7. trying to understand when you just can't
8. realizing that you have been tricked after you have given your whole trust
9. parting and letting go of someone you have loved all your life

> You died on the cross, my life you saved at all cost.
You showed me the way.
Now i offer my life to you, i want to be with you.
Lord, i wanna be in heaven with you.
Right by your side, i'll stay worshipping you all day.
i will live and die for you.
anything i will do for heaven is here in my heart.

how i lost that highschool girl

She's everything that i envy about, her independence, freedom, free spirit and laughter. She is used to responsibilities, although she would always slack off anytime she wanted. She is comfortable with her own soul and personality, oh, how i envy her. She is strong-willed and hard-headed sometimes. She does not have to make an effort to get good grades, i used good because some of her grades are just average since you would always see her dozing off in class, seatwork, or even exams. She's also a couch potato, you can trust her as a tv guide. She's also a blend of matured, childish and child-like attitudes.
How i miss her, after highschool i totally forgot about her, as if she vanished in thin air of graduation, things suddenly turned 360 degrees. I wish that she would come back and lie down on the ground, stare at the stars and dream of the future, at least to recall how its like to be carefree.
I wanted to see her again at least just for a moment, so i would remember what it feels like to be with her, to be her.

it's all in the blog

Sometimes you have to conceal yourself to a mask created by emotions and magnified by circumstances you are in.

dust on the convolusions of my brain

(di ko maalala kung ano ang iniisip ko nito)
my voice is so loud
that i couldn't be heard
my tears keep from falling
but my eyes are so dry
i keep on seeking
still i could not find
my journey is long
how far can i go?

Valentine treat 2006

**som of the songs that we love way back in highschool

Makes me whole
Darling I want you to listen
I stayed up all night, so I can get this thing right
And I don't think there's anything missing
Cause a person like you, made it easy to do
I've waited for so long, to sing to you this song
Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the only other half that makes me whole

I think the angels are your brothers, yeah
They told you about me, said you're just what she needs
And I find myself thanking your mother
For giving birth to a saint
My spirit flies when I say your name
If there's one thing that's true
It's that I was born to love you

Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the only other half that makes me whole
You make my dreams
Come true over and, over again
And I honestly truly believe
You and me are written in the stars
I live my whole life through
To giving thanks to you
Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the only other half that makes me whole

FIrst Believe
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace
So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And you showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star

inbox

**As we grow up, we learn that even the one person who wasn't supposed to let us down would probably will. You'll have your heart broken probably more than once and its harder everytime. you'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. you'll fight with your bestfriend. you'll blame a new love for the things the old one did. you'll cry coz time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone you love. so move ahead, laugh a lot, smile , love like you have never been hurt. coz every 60 sec. u spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never ever get back. ;o)

**One night, the boy asked his gf to marry him. the girl gave him a challenge, to live a day without her. no communication between them for 24 hours. he can only communicate to her after 24 hours. the girl promise to marry him right after he do it. not knowing that the girl has only 24 hours left to live coz she's suffering from an illness. after 24 hours, the boy went to the girl's house holding a ring. he was surprised to know she's dead, the mother gave him a letter saying, "you did it! i love youand yes i will marry you. can you do it again?... everyday?

**The hebrew talmud says, "Be very careful if you make a woman cry because God counts her tears. the woman came out of a man's rib, not from his feet to be walked on. not from his head to be superior of, but from the side to be equal with. under the arm to be protected for and next to the heart to be loved"

**Have you ever experienced a time in your life when you felt so empty for no reason?have you ever felt so down but you just can't tell why? have you ever felt like the world suddenly spins around you and you are caught in the middle going nowhere? weird isn't it? but that's the beauty of being human.. it is knowing that there is a purpose for each existence and whatever that may be, it is also the reason why we still wake up breathing each morning, to discover that missing piece of puzzle that would make our lives complete.

**Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. know a good thing when you see it, and don't let it slip away, if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life , let it. nobody said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it.

comento

Sa ngyari kahapon na trahedya(feb.4,2006) sa wowowee, ano kaya ang nglalaro sa isip mo? sa isip ng maraming taong nandun? ikaw na nanonood sa tv ng mga oras na yun, ano kaya ang masasabi mo? pero ang pinakaimportante ano ang masasabi ng gobyerno?nakakainis sa totoo lang, parang nahihimbing pa rin ang gobyerno sa katotohanan. ang sarap nilang buhusan ng kumukulong tubig para makita nila ang nangyayari.

manhid ba ang mga namumuno para hindi sila magisip? ito na marahil ang pinakamalungkot na ngyari sa telebisyon, mantakin mo sa kagustuhan ng mga kababayan natin na manalo ng kaunti pantwid gutom ay napahamak pa sila. hindi ko maisip kung bakit hinihintay nila ang samabayanang pilipino na unti-unting mamatay sa gutom. sukdulan talaga ito!!!!

malalim na tagalog daw

Abuloy - bayad sa nahigop na kape at nanguyang biskwit sa nilamayang sakla. Akala - alam na alam daw.
Aginaldo - inaasahan na makukuha sa araw ng Pasko na mas okay sana kung pera na lang.
Bakasyon - sandaliang pahinga sa trabahong hingal lang ang pahinga.
Bakit - tanong na laging mahirap masagot.
Bakya - tsinelas na may takong.
Baga - lutuan ng mga hindi makabili ng microwave.
Bagoong - masarap na ulam ng mga walang maiulam.
Baldado - hindi mamamatay-matay na mukhang hindi na mabubuhay.
Bale - suweldong inutang.
Kaaway - ikli ng 'kaibigan na Inayawan.'
Kababata - dating gelpren na may ibang boypren.
Kabag - utot na naipon sa tiyan.
Kabayo - hayop na sinasakyan ng kalesa.
Kalbo - gupit ng buhok na korte! ng itlog.
Dalaginding - dalagang hindi pa nagsusuot ng bra.
Dilim - liwanag na maitim.
E - ireng paseksi.
Gahasa - romansang walang ligawan.
Ginang - asawa ni ginoo na mukha nang tsimay.
Ginoo - inaasawa ni ginang na may inaasawang iba.
Gipit - kalagayan ng tao na suki na ng sanglaan.
Ha - sagot ng nagbibingi-bingihan.
Halakhak - tawang bukang-buka ang ngala-ngala.
Handaan - magdamagan na Palakihan ng tiyan.
Handog - bigay na laging may kapalit.
Hipo - haplos na may malisya.
Hudas - tapat na manloloko.
Ibon - hayop na lumalangoy sa hangin.
Imposible - pagtaas ng unano.
Insulto - walang hiyang biro.
Isda - hayop na hindi nalulunod.
Ita - negrong Pinoy.
La - ikli ng 'lalalalala' sa kinakantang hindi maalala.
Lalawigan - syudad ng kahirapan.
Langaw - kulisap na bangung-bango sa amoy ng basura.
Ma -tawag tawag sa gelpren na mukhang nanay na.
Malusog - hitsura ng tumatabang balat.
Mama - tawag sa sosyal na ina.
Mano - kaugaliang Pinoy na nakapupudpod ng noo.
Mantika - katas ng piniritong taba.
Maybahay - asawang utusan sa bahay.
Nakaw - pagkuha ng walang pasabing 'akin na lang ito.'
Naku - ikli ng 'ina ko, ina na ako.'
Nitso - bahay ng mga patay.
Nobya - gelpren na laking probinsya.
Ngalngal - iyak ng walang ipen.
Ngisi - tawang tulo-laway.
Ngiti - tawang labas ipen.
Paa - bahagi ng katawan na amoy lupa.
Paaralan - dito itinuturo kung ano, alin o sino ang mapipiling bobo.
Panata - dasal na nakatataba ng tuhod.
Regla - masungit na panahon ng pagkababae.
Sabon - mabangong bagay na ipinapahid sa mabahong katawan.
Sakristan - utusan ng pari.
Sampal - haplos na nakatitigas ng mukha.
Ta - ikli ng 'tita' o lalaking may bra.
Tamad - taong hindi napapagod sa pahinga.

2006

Happy new year to everyone!! =))
Wow, it's 2006. I feel blessed that i was able to survive another year, you all know what i mean, human life can be taken in just blink of an eye especially nowadays that we are surrounded by political and environmental threats, etc.

But as i recall the past year and look at myself today, i am only glad of one thing, that my family and friends are still there. Last night, 2 of my friends and i went to watch a movie, afterwards we went to kaycee's house and started talking about the past year, achievements or anything that happened in the past year. However, on my part i cannot recall anything so i blurted, "here we are, we're still together". although some of our closest friends are not there we know that they still think and care for us. When i went home, kaycee sent me a text message that i felt touched after i read it, it says "sana next year masasabi natin ulet na ito magkakasama pa rin tayo, achievement na para sakin na magkakasama pa rin tau"(i rephrased the message to make it short) and tam sent me a similar message,too. Well, you see, i treasure my friends and of course my family a lot, but after several trials that came to my family, we became a little aloft to each other, we are stll bombarded by problems but i guess somehow we are still trying to work out our differences and still in the process of adjustments, in conclusion we are okay. As of my friends, i would never trade them for anything else, no matter where they are right now, no matter what will happen for the next five years, i believe that they are miracles that God has done for me and for others who feel blessed of their presence. And for my new friends especially at my school, i thank God everyday for making my college years, a little like heaven because of their presence. =)

to everyone Happy new year!